Needing You

The last few weeks have been so hard... Well, I guess it is more like the last few years. Though I guess there are times I feel very guilty because I am getting along without you here. I sometimes think that I should be sadder. Or maybe I should cry more often. But I know that isn't what you would want for me. Today... Today I miss you.

I realized today the sacrifices that you made for us along the way in life. Although I am sure I realized many of them numerous other times, today, I really thought about it. Doing things because you have to - as a mom, or a wife - that you need to do, even if you are so unhappy. Sacrificing the things that make you - you.

And today, I realized that it really sucks that you aren't here. Sometimes, there is no comfort like that of your mom. I realize that when my children come to me for hugs and kisses. Kissing bruises and bumps and scrapes. Of course, not Travis or Alex, they are too old and that is just not cool - but they will be back. I know that. I know that because today, I wish you were here to kiss me on the cheek and tell me that everything is going to be o.k.