Dying Without You

Mom,
     In just a few short hours, it will be exactly 8 years since I hearrd the sound of your voice.  In a few more hours after that, it will be 8 years since Jacob lost the only Grandma he had left.  It breaks my heart so much Mom... 

     Right now, I can barely hold myself together for the sake of my children.  I cry all the time and feel like my whole life is falling apart and then, I don't have you there to hold me up.  I just wish so badly that for one day, you were here. 

     What I wouldn't give to hear your voice or have your arms around me... holding me up.  I can't do this on my own mom.  I can't do this without a mom.  I am dying without you...

     I can't tell you how many days I wish and I have prayed for the Lord to take me from this world so I could just be with you.  Life made sense when you were here with me.  Life was always going to get better when I heard you tell me that it would...

    I can't hear you now.

    Life isn't getting better....